Hello Winter, I didn’t miss you at all.
I wonder what it is about early winter…
that seems to bring me down every year.
Maybe it’s because the year is nearing another end..
and I come to realize that there is still so so so much more I wanted to do…
yet another year has gone by without having done…
Maybe it’s because I haven’t seen and felt the warmth of that one special person in a long long time…
that one person that can make time stop and melt my worries away…
please come…
Maybe it’s because I can feel the clock ticking…
tick-tock
tick-tock
time’s slipping through my fingers
what are you going to do with your life?
what is your purpose?
what is your passion?
Maybe it’s because… with the final month just around the corner,
all the stress and bullshit I’ve had to deal with throughout the year
has finally taken its toll
and I find myself too weak and tired to push my worn-out body forward…
and believe me when I say…
I’ve dealt with enough bullshit and unbelievable people this past year….
I’m just a little tired.
From all the mess of 2009.
especially with parts continuing from 2008…
no one to blame but myself.
but I’ve learned my lesson.
Not saying they’re the main reason I’m feeling so low.
But it does contribute to how energy draining it was throughout this year…
A jumble of things… happening recently
all very emotional…
some good
some bad
some hurt
some warm
some fun
some sad
I think I just need a break…
to refresh
to rest
to relax
a change of scenery…
a little getaway..
overwhelmed and overload
I need to find some peace.